Nicole Cooley is Silent No More about rape and abortion
Nicole Cooley testified about her story of rape and abortion on the steps of the US Supreme Court building at the 2012 March for Life. Nicole is the Virginia Project Director for the Center for Bio-Ethical Reform (CBR).
A video of Nicole’s remarks is shown below. Here is the text:
I am here today because I deeply regret the abortion I had four weeks after being raped. There is no good reason to have an abortion. All the logical reasons fail to keep your heart from breaking when it’s over.
If, like me, you were raped, and you think you can’t bear nine months of pregnancy, I can tell you from experience the seventeen years of regret have been worse. I realized too late that my baby was a gift from a loving God who wanted to give me a purpose for my pain.
I want women facing this decision to know you can carry to term; you can choose the adoptive parents, and set your own terms, if you wish. You can live without the tears, the regret, and the nights of despair – or worse.
The abortion clinic I went to provided no verbal counseling and instead gave me a handful of papers with words I couldn’t read through my tears and shaking. The anesthesiologist told me, “It will be over soon.” She was wrong. The abortion was the beginning of the real nightmare for me.
I had no idea how the abortion would affect me. The abortion made healing from the rape infinitely more difficult by compounding the trauma. Before the abortion I cried daily. Afterwards, I shut down emotionally.
The rape and abortion made my life a living hell. I had nightmares beginning the night of the rape. Countless nights, I have woken up crying. The anguished tears I have cried are unlike any other despair I’ve ever experienced, including the death of close family members.
The rape and abortion crushed my spirit. Abortion robbed me not only of my joy, but also the essence of who I am by making me turn against my own child.
Since the rape and abortion, it has been very difficult for me to trust men. I am only married today because God sent me an incredibly gentle and patient man. I have difficulty trusting doctors. Annual exams are often stressful and painful. The subsequent births of my sons and daughter with my husband have been very difficult because of an unnatural fear of pregnancy and childbirth.
Abortion is not the answer for rape. It never was. But God is the answer for the pain. My faith in Jesus Christ has not only healed me, but given me the courage to speak out and provided a purpose to all that I have suffered. This is why I choose to be Silent No More!
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